M x L

it is done, at least :3 it took some time and this chapter is short just because i don't want you to wait any longer for it ^^ here it is; i hope you like it

~~Linder pov~~
When i got out to you and jenziih together with a realy scared and crying endigo, i saw the blood on the street and your lifeless body wich was lying in it all. my heart beated fast and hard, i wondered why ... i looket at you again. even the blood couldn't hide your beauty ... i have dreamed about you, i said to myself and remembered that night, wich was filled with hate and envy ... i looked at jenziih with angry gaze ...

~~jenziih pov~~
the tears broke out in my eyes. until the ambulance came, i stayed with you and didn't leave your side for a second. it all happened so fast, i couldn't think. you fell ... i ran ... soon you where leaving me, i still love you. i wanted to say those words, but they couldn't be said ... not by me ... we got to the hospital, they put you in one of their beds ... we cried over you, begd to God. a doctor dragd us out, but not endigo. i felt the envy beat hard in my sick body. i wanted to stay with you, i wanted to die with you. i looked through the window and saw endigo's red face. he didn't look lite himself more ...

~~endigo pov~~
"she's in a coma ..."
i felt the blood in my vains and fell to the floor becide you. his words went through my mind over and over again. "will she ever be fine again??" i asked. "in a week or so ..." the doctor said.
i sighed and my whole body relaxed. the tears of joy ran down my cheek as the others came in and cried together with me. but not linder, he just stood there and watched it all happen. he face were so white, it looked like he was dead ...

~~linder pov~~
jenziih took your hand and kissed your forehead. all i wanted to scream was: "leave her alone!!!" and pull him away from her. endigo held your other hand ... i had nothing against him, he was your brother of cours ... but jenziih ... you two broke up a long time ago it felt like ... you didn't need him anymore ... but do you love him?? i saw endigo gaze go to jenziih ... everything broke into pieces ...
"what the fuck are you doing???" he yelled when he saw jenziih's lips on yours .... 

take me home

ok, here is my 'ruki oneshot' ^^
~take me home~

ayame pov

i turned away when he looked at me with his black eyes. his gaze went right through me like he was dreaming or looking at something else. "hey, ayame! what do you want to drink?" aoi said and put his arm around me in a way to say: "back off!" to the others. "just a beer", i said and met aoi's confident gaze. "ok", he said and stoped a waither that was on his way to the kitchen. "hey, can my girl get a beer?" the waither nodded and looked at me with a supriced look, but then he just walked away and got my beer. "Aoi?" a guy with a noseband said. "yeah", he answered. "why don't you introduce us to your lovely girlfriend?" suddenly i blushed and looked down on the ground. i felt aoi freze becide me. "oh, yeah", he said,"this is reita", he pointed at the noseband-guy , "ruki, kai and uruha." so the boy that looked at me before was ruki. he was short, but taller than me, and he had white hair and black tattoo's on the neck. he met my eyes and smiled a smile that maked me all warm and funny inside. i smiled back and drank the beer. when i was done i said to aoi: "i must go to the girlsroom."

ruki pov

"...girlsroom", she said and went. after 5 minutes i niticed that she hadn't come back. "excuse me", i said and went after her. i slowly opened the door and there she was; putting more make-up on her face. i took a deep breath when i saw her long legs and very short skirt. her breasts looked big in her tight and short t-skirt. i understand why aoi liked her. i knew she hadn't seen me yet so i walked inside and locked the door. she jumped when she herd me and looked chocked at me.

ayame pov

i thought it was a girl that came in, but when i herd the locking "klick" from the door i turned around and saw no one else than ruki. "ruki ...", i whispered. his answer were to walk up to me and look with very hungry eyes at me. "ruki! wha-", he interruped me by putting his lips on mine. he slowly maked me open my mouth and his toung flew inside, exploring every millimeter. i broke off and pushed him away. "ruki!!! stop!!! you don't even know me!"  "but ayame ... aoi isn't good for you" i sighed, "how would you know!?" "i know aoi, for him ... you're just a hooker!" he said and took a step towards me as i steped back. "but, why would i trust you? you're maybe just like him!!"  now he sighed and looked away with a painful expression on his face. "please just believe me, from the moment i saw you i knew it was something with you and i knew that aoi wasn't the one you loved!" he looked at me with serious gaze. "please ..." i let him come closer to me. he pressed me against the sink when his hand followed my neck down to my hip. "can i trust you?" i asked and moaned when he bit my weak spot. "i don't know ... can you?" he wispered against my neck. "well, i think i can. after all, maybe i'm a hooker to you too, but you will be a great boy", i sighed and let my arms embrace him. i burried my face in his chest and drug in his sent into me. "you smell so good ...", i said and closed my eyes. his laugh was sweeter than i thought. but suddenly i remembered the others and aoi ... "we should probably go out ... the others must be worried." "yeah", he said and pulled himself away from me, even though he didn't want to. "wait, i sould go first so it not seems so suspicious." i kissed him hard on his lips. "ok ... see you soon", he said as i walked to the door and opened it. a last time a looked at him and smiled. when i went to the table i saw that uruha and aoi was gone and reita and kai just sat there and went silent as they saw me. "hay guys ... where is aoi?" i smiled. they didn't say anything, they just looked at me and then on something behind me. "what are you ...?" i started and turned around and saw aoi. with another girl. i saw his hand heading up under her skirt. i gasped and felt the sadness grow inside me. but then i saw ruki becide me and then; the tears broke out and ran down my cheek. "ayame ... what is it?" then he saw the same thing i saw. "what the fuck??" my heart beated hard and irregular.

ruki pov

i started to walk over to him. "aoi??" i said as he steped away from the girl, who ran off. "what the hell are you doing??" "what does it look like i'm doing??" he laughed. "but ayame?!" "eh, screw her! i don't want her anymore! i just took her to make you impressed!" when i herd him say that, i looked around after ayame, but she wasn't there. "oh! go to hell!!" i yelled and pushed him so hard he fell to the ground. i ran towards the door.

ayame pov

i ran out r

i ran out the door and out on the street. there i stoped dead and fell down to my knees. soon i felt ruki's safe hand on my back. he sat down becide me and maked me rest my head on his shoulder. "hey, it's ok ... i maked him pay back." i looked at him with blurred gaze. "thanks", i said and gave him a hug. "i thought i loved him ... for real." he didn't say anything, but he helped me up on shaking legs. "are you cold?" he asked. "no ...", i answered. "too bad ... but you wanna take a shower with me? at my place ofc!" i just smiled. 

M x L CHAP. 3

miyuki x linder ~~ chapter 3

~~linder pov~~

i saw jenzih's deep scars on his wrist when he drove his hand through his hair and slowly woke up from 1 hour of sleeping. but i didn't care much after that he said to us that we shouldn't be worried a month ago. he said that he would stop cutting, but he didn't. i was pretty mad at him at the moment but he was still my friend so i couldn't let that come in the way. "nobody?" seike asked and sat down becide him on the 'bed'. "are you sure of that?"
"yeah ..." jenziih muttered as seike walked to RAY and said that he would start with me because i knew by the deep sigh he made when he stood up that he would take a serious talk with him.

~~Kaz pov~~

everything  was set and done. my make-up and hair was done as well. the fans started to come in and i felt the adrenaline spread in my body when i herd them shout my name. soon, very soon i could go out there and rock it to the end. endigo took my hand and led me out on the stage-floor, making our people scream even more in the sight of his hand in mine.

~~Miyuki pov~~

the backstage was empthy, but filled with smoke. when my brother went out on the stage with the others i sat down, closed my eyes and lissened to the music that was the pulsed through the walls i was sorrounded by. soon they were done and they ran, sweaty and exhausted after a 5 songs. andie layed down on the same couch i was sitting in and out his feet on my knees with a sigh. "disgusting andie!!!" i yelled and turned my head away in a way to escape the acidic sent. but when i did that he just put thet infront of my face. i began to feel sick. "please andie! can't you take them away!?"
"nope", he said as a door to another hallway opened and 5 guys came in. one had percings on his cheek and black and pink hair, the second had a very beautiful dress and long, blond hair and the third ... i recognize him ... or the most of him because he had this thing over his mouth ... he froze when i looked at him and when our eyes met, i remembered who it was ...
it was jenziih ... the guy i just broke up with, the guy i loved just a few months ago ... i felt my heart going wild and my face, i swear, it became red.
all these questions flew through my mind.
did he notice me? did he remembered me? does he still love me? why is he here? how do i look?
and i started to play with my fingers.

~~jenziih pov~~

when i saw her, i couldn't believe she was here. why was she here in the first place? but she was beautiful as always. my heart beated hard and my blood pulsed trough my body with power. all i could see was her ...

~~miyuki pov~~ ´

i couldn't take it anymore. his burning gaze stayed on me, no one else. i flew up and runned towards the door to the otherworld, not the one they came from. tears broke out when i opened the door and i couldn't see where i was going. i tripped and everything went white ...

Miyuki x Linder

Miyuki x Linder

~~Jenziih pov~~

the train was late ... i had to wait an hour ... and my limo-driver have been gone for 13 minutes, leaving me here to the rain, wich was hurting me like knives ... but it wasn’t hurting me like the greef that she left behind in my heart ... it rained just like this on that day.
Why can’t i stop think of you? I thought and sighed.
I sat down on a bench beside a big, red building.
I started to cry ... again ... My hands covered my eyes, because i didn’t want anyone to see me like this ... like crap ... Soon i was out of tears and i stoped and let the rain wash away the rest ...
Soon i herd heavy footsteps on the groud ... coming towards me ...
“Jenziih?”
a shiver went through my spine when i herd that dark, unknown voice.
Fuck me ...
“What?” i said with a tired voice, hoping that the man would go away and leave me alone ...
he laughed.
I looked up on the tall man with an annoyed gaze. “Linder?”
“Yeah?” he said, still laughing.
“I ... i thought you were someone else ... sorry.”
He had black jeans and a black T-skirt and a grey jacket over wich was wet from the wather. He used to have a beard, but this morning he apparently had shaved because he had no stubble on his chin.
“Don’t worry”, he said and sat down beside me.
I yawned and picked up my phone, there was one missed phonecall from ...
“Seike?” he interrupted me in the thought.
“Yeah ...” i said and looked cofused on him.
He laughed again and said: “He called me too, he was just wondering where i was ...”
“Oh ...”
he didn’t call me again ... and the time flew away and soon i sat in the train going for Stockholm ... i sat becide Linder who just talked and talked and talked ... i didn’t need to say anything. When we got off, the others was waiting for us on the station.

~~Linder pov~~

when we got to the arena , Overworld was already there. Endigo was singing all alone on the stage and his voice was herd in the big loudspeakers on each side of me. I smiled when he saw us and got that happy grin on his face as normal. He waved at us and started singing again.

~~Jenziih pov~~

i was just about to open the door to my home when the same door flew up and a crying Miyuki ran out and gave me a hard hug. I dropped all my work on the ground and hugged her back.
“What is it hunny?” i said and looked her in her eyes with a worried gaze.
“It is Endigo ... he found out about ...”
i kissed her in a way to cut her off. “we will find a way, OK? I wont let him take away what we have”, i said and kissed her again. Her lipps were salted by her tears and softer than usual. We started to make out and soon she broke away and gasped after air. “I promise, he wont hurt us”, i said. When i finally got her inside the house she ripped my jacket off and started to pull my skirt off as well.
“Hey ...” i said and took her hands in a hard grip. “Stop.”
“i don’t know if this is the last night ...”
“Don’t say that”, i interrupted, but she contuned like she hadn’t herd a thing of what i just said.
“we will spend together without having problems on so can’t we treat it as such? As the last night alive?”
she kissed me and i let her desperet fingers take all my clothes off at the same time.
I took her hands once again and pulled her away from me. “Are you sure you wanna do this? I mean you can’t undo things like this”, i said.
She kissed me again, hard, like an answer. “It is all i wanted to do in the end ... with someone i love”, she said and smiled an unforgettable smile. I was just about to take her in my arms and carry her up in my room when a woman said my name, and it was not the one i had infront of me.
“Jenziih?”
everything started shaking, break into pieces and soon it went black ...
“Miyuki? Miyuki!” i screamed when i saw myself falling in nowhere.

“Who the hell is Miyuki?” a familiar voice said. i opened my eyes and i saw seike staring at me.
FUCK!!! It was all a dream ... i thought and said: “Nobody.”

preview MxL

Miyuki x Linder

~~Jenziih pov~~

the train was late ... i had to wait an hour ... and my limo-driver have been gone for 13 minutes, leaving me here to the rain, wich was hurting me like knives ... but it wasn’t hurting me like the greef that she left behind in my heart ... it rained just like this on that day.

Why can’t i stop think of you? I thought and sighed.

I sat down on a bench beside a big, red building.

I started to cry ... again ... My hands covered my eyes, because i didn’t want anyone to see me like this ... like crap ... Soon i was out of tears and i stoped and let the rain wash away the rest ...

Soon i herd heavy footsteps on the groud ... coming towards me ...

“Jenziih?”

a shiver went through my spine when i herd that dark, unknown voice.

Fuck me ... 

Miyuki x Linder

Nyappy!!! Nu har den första delen av 'Miyuki x Linder' kommit ut på bloggen. 
i denna berättelse kommer det att vara med personer från 
Seremedy: 

Yohio,            Ray              Seike            Linder          Jenziih, ex
och Overworld:

Endigo, brother
och:

Kaz 
 here it is!!

Miyuki x Linder ... Chapter 1

~~Jenziih pov~~

her eyes ... i couldn't get them out of my head. her body ... was perfect pressed to mine, but it wasn't there ... just in my head and soul. i was all alone. all i had was the silent shine of the moon and a bed filled with pillows.

~~Linder pov~~

"Are those beers good?" seike asked and gave me the small sousages on a silver plate.
i started to eat. "yeah!" i said and smiled.
"Good, because i will have one!" he said and sat down beside me. it did't happen that much that night, untill Yohio came and ruined the hole night because we became drunk ... XD

~~Jenziih pov~~

I cried so much i couldn't even sleep and when the morning came my life was over ... or it felt like that ... i missed her, but she didn't miss me ...

~~Miyuki pov~~

the smell of coffee woke me up in the early morning. Endigo's familliar singing voice filled the house with happieness and loving. i got dressed and walked down the stairs. he was cooking and it smelled great! i started to sing with him on one of his songs when he herd me and stoped, but i continued. he looked at me with choked gaze. now i stoped. "You have a great voice!" he yelled.
"Don't say that! i don't have a voice!" i said and turned around.
"Yes you do sis!!"
"it's just because i have you as my brother."
he laughed, "Thanks!" and continued on the food insted.
"Endigo?"
"Yes?" he answered.
"what are we gonna do today??"
"Eh ... my band will have a consert in Stockholm this evening and i must get ready", he said sadly.
"Oh ... too bad ..." i said and sat down; waiting for the breakfast.
Why didn't he tell me this earlier?? 


~~Jenziih pov~~

i got all my clothes packed and ready. my limo waiting for me outside, but i didn'r care ... i took my time ... to say goodbye to all the memories, because i was about to move out ... to another city ... to Stockholm ...

~~Miyuki pov~~

he continued to cook his damn food and i continued waiting for it. it took minutes without we talking to eatchother ...

~~Endigo pov~~

her annoyed gaze burned my back, it was like she had fire-eyes that she continued shooting on me ...
"OK, OK!! i'm sorry!!" i laughed and gave her the breakfast.
she smiled and gave me a: "Huh??" without taking her eyes of the inviting plate.
"sorry, wanna come??"
she jumped a little bit and asked me: "wanna come to where??"
"Where do you think?! to our consert OFC!" i yelled laughing.
"What makes you think i wanna come and see your stupid little show??"
"OK! NOW YOU'RE JUST MAKING ME MAD!!" i said and she smiled a innocent smile. "Oh, come on!! Kaz will be there~~"
she blushed and nodded. i knew that she had a crush on him.
"OK, so we say so?? you will come and see the consert??"

~~Miyuki pov~~

"Yeah, i will", is said and hugged him over the table.
he hugged me back and said: "Good then, you must pack your things fast because we must be gone in an hour."

i yelled and threw the food into my mouth and runned back to my room. 

komentera gärna och det kan vara lite stavfel men jag är aza trött just nu och jag ska gå och lägga mig XD <3 god natt allihopa !!!!! 

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Hello everyone ^^ on this blog i will share my stories and they are on english so i will wright on english. hope you like <3